July — month I almost disappeared.
35 kg — that’s what I weighed.
I wasn’t eating. because I didn’t want to. I didn’t even drink water anymore.
One day, I heard that drinking 3 tablespoons of salt in glass of water helps you lose weight - so I did it.
That was first time my mom rushed me to ER.
I fainted.
I took diuretics like candy.
At night, I cried because I was scared to fall asleep — scared that my heart, beating so slowly, might just stop.
But still… I refused to eat.
There were days I didn’t move, didn’t speak, didn’t live.
We made lots of analyses and found out that my organism started eating my muscles. I remember how my mom even was scared to touch me — she was scared to break my bones.
I was surrounded by doctors, but I didn’t talk to any of them.
Even when they forced vitamins and fluids into my veins, I went home and took 10 diuretic pills that same day.
And I felt proud... and terrified.
Because deep down, I knew — I might not wake up tomorrow
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35 kg — that’s what I weighed.
I wasn’t eating. because I didn’t want to. I didn’t even drink water anymore.
One day, I heard that drinking 3 tablespoons of salt in glass of water helps you lose weight - so I did it.
That was first time my mom rushed me to ER.
I fainted.
I took diuretics like candy.
At night, I cried because I was scared to fall asleep — scared that my heart, beating so slowly, might just stop.
But still… I refused to eat.
There were days I didn’t move, didn’t speak, didn’t live.
We made lots of analyses and found out that my organism started eating my muscles. I remember how my mom even was scared to touch me — she was scared to break my bones.
I was surrounded by doctors, but I didn’t talk to any of them.
Even when they forced vitamins and fluids into my veins, I went home and took 10 diuretic pills that same day.
And I felt proud... and terrified.
Because deep down, I knew — I might not wake up tomorrow
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