35 kilograms. But I already dream of 32.
Bones stick out even from my face - but I'm still not satisfied with myself.
Fear of death slowly starts to win.
I agree to vitamin drips, drink water. I eat, little by little.
One day, my family heard me say I wanted to go to sea.
And in just a few days - we did.
Grandparents came from Ukraine, my sister - from France.
Maybe it was planned, or not, but that house had almost no mirrors.
For two weeks, I didn't see myself, didn't weigh myself.
And it felt... so good.
I still argued with my family.
But I started to taste food again. Desire to live began visiting me more often.
Desire to be thinner still returns every time I see food.
I'm gaining weight, I don't like how I look, but I like that my strength is coming back even a little.
Now I'm scared of something else of slipping into bulimia.
Because stopping myself from eating feels like challenge now.
But I still remember those six months of death.
And I never want to go back there.
I want to live 🕊️
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Bones stick out even from my face - but I'm still not satisfied with myself.
Fear of death slowly starts to win.
I agree to vitamin drips, drink water. I eat, little by little.
One day, my family heard me say I wanted to go to sea.
And in just a few days - we did.
Grandparents came from Ukraine, my sister - from France.
Maybe it was planned, or not, but that house had almost no mirrors.
For two weeks, I didn't see myself, didn't weigh myself.
And it felt... so good.
I still argued with my family.
But I started to taste food again. Desire to live began visiting me more often.
Desire to be thinner still returns every time I see food.
I'm gaining weight, I don't like how I look, but I like that my strength is coming back even a little.
Now I'm scared of something else of slipping into bulimia.
Because stopping myself from eating feels like challenge now.
But I still remember those six months of death.
And I never want to go back there.
I want to live 🕊️
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